Please I hope some of you will pray for me. I am feeling so blue I just don’t know how to deal. I sleep too much which solves nothing, eat poorly which certainly doesn’t help and mourn my mom too much. It seems everything falls to me…I live in her house and I am alone so everyone assumes I will take care of going through all the papers, clothes, momentos and such. They assume I will attend to the yard, disposing of things, paying bills, talking to lawyers etc…and one side wants me to hurry it along and the other is so down they don’t want to hear of it or make decisions. I feel lost. I am pretty sure she didn’t expect me to be in this place but she didn’t prepare well and I think she knew. I am not angry…she didn’t mean for me to feel so lost…but my best friend just died..she was pretty much my only friend. Twenty years of traveling contract work left no time for me or friends. Sadly since I got laid off four years ago…I am not well fixed…so I sit here asking who can help, who do I talk to, how do I get it done and once it is…where do I go when mom’s house is sold and everyone gets what they want. What then? I know this is so self serving and I am sorry…but what would God want me to do now? I cannot hear his voice and there isn’t another. My doctor prescribed pills to make me happy but that seems a foolish path…how can a pill fix anything? It can only make you care less which seems wrong. I just bought a big bible with large type but I am not sure what it can do and where to begin. Please advice, prayers, and maybe a gentle word from a lost servant wondering where to turn. I asked Jesus but I cannot hear him. How do I hear his advice? A tearful Virginia
