Lord I am waiting on you to show me how best to serve. I moved in here to help my mother and I was sure it was the right thing. But she has passed and there is so much to do till the courts sort out the property. Packing, sorting, and cleaning falls to me. But some days I just see something and cry and I wonder how to let go the sadness. I feel that since she was a Christian that I should be happy for her. But she declined so quickly despite my best care and maybe I am feeling like there must be more I could have done. I am confused, sad, but I have to keep moving toward the goal of selling all for the family. Besides as I expected it is my daughter who is heartbroken. Somehow I have to fill mom’s shoes for her kids. I guess I am asking for prayers so I can find my way in troubled times. I love you Jesus but some days I wish we could just chat. Somehow, I need to find a new normal with me as the oldest of a very small family. It is hard knowing they look to me now. Pray for me to find peace, patience, and a new vision. Thank you Lord for you patience and please show me the way to lead this family through this loss. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
